Please help keep the truth alive - or all we have are lies!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

The Holy Powers of Three

“Ialdaboath, becoming arrogant in spirit, boasted himself over all those who were below him, and explained, "I am the father, and God, and above me there is no one," his mother hearing him speak thus, cried out against him: "Do not lie, Ialdabaoth, for the father of all, the primal Anthropos, is above you, and so is Anthropos, the son of Anthropos."

Monday, December 29, 2014

Dark Angel

Dark Angel
By Brian Thomas Armstrong
Tonight as you lay down to rest
I come to put your soul to test
If you should wake before you die
I will be the one to look you in the eye
Before I send you back
Into your true eternal home

Sunday, December 28, 2014


By Brian Thomas Armstrong
The wind rushes through my hair, blowing my mind away
My thoughts drift through the air, then fall like a sunset at the end of day
I see clearly now through my mind’s eye, using the vision of my inner child
It lifts away the hazy grown-up clouds that once blocked my sight
No more fighting myself
The flight I have taken since birth finally lands with a resounding thud!
As my confusion hits the pavement after jumping from the heights of my soul

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

The Social Hysteria Blog - URL Change

The Social Hysteria Blog is changingits URL on Jan, 1st 2015

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

The Human Animal

The Beast Within All of Us Feeds Off the Hysteria
of our Minds

Monday, December 1, 2014


They do  Make a Man or a Monster out of You - Both should still always be respected for their Sacrifice one way or the other. Innocents Lost - Humanity Lost - Both are Equal Sacrifices for Something other than Themselves!

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Equality Question Mark

Equality Question  Mark: Out of the Hundreds and Hundreds of police shootings every year, how come the Nation only
Acts out in Anger over the African American ones shot by
White Police? (BTA)

Mother's Love by (BTA)

To all the Mother’s around the World
   Who unconditionally Love, Guide,
          and Watch Over all of Us.
                     Thank you!

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Ferguson, USA

                                                               Ferguson, USA

Stop and Think - Then Protest all U want PEACEFULLY - Or become the thing you are protesting against - Hate and Violent Self-Righteous Indifference. BTA

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Obama 2014 Immigration Speech: Nice to see you back Mr. President.

Good Job Obama - Great, Truthful, and Rational Immigration Speech - Now that's the President we voted for two terms ago! Nice to see you back Mr. President.

The Social Hysteria Blog -

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Marysville School Shooting: It Could Happen Anywhere

Marysville School Shooting: It Could Happen Anywhere 

The Marysville, Wash. School Shooting: Senseless tragedies like these will continue to happen until we not only change the gun laws across America - but also fundamentally change the inherit flaws in our present day society. 

We have to do more together in order to stop the disheartening and increasing trend of gun violence in our communities, now to include our nation’s latest 14 year old “School Shooter, “Jaylen Fryburg. We need to start teaching our kids something more valuable and enlightening than how to run-for-it when someone pulls out a gun and starts shooting. What we as a people need to do, and what we should strive to teach our children, in order to help stop future school, mall, and workplace shootings are:

Teach our children real life coping skills: There were some clear warning signs prior to the Oct, 24th school shooting in Marysville,  Washington , when  Jaylen Fryburg walked into his Pilchuck High School cafeteria, sat down, and then silently stood back up again, emotionless - and unloaded a small hand gun  into six of his fellow students, two of whom were his cousins, is that: He had just Broken up with his girl-friend. Was recently suspended/ kicked-off his football team for a fight with another team-mate over a supposedly racist comment towards him. He was also posting very dark and disturbing social media tweets on Twitter (even for a 14 year-old), weeks before committing his terrible crime on not only his young victims, but also to himself and his family when he took his own life afterwards. It was obvious that he had planned the attack beforehand as an act of revenge.

Teach our Youth the value of life: Jaylan Fryburg was related to a prominent Native American family living on the successful Tulalip Reservation that is located about thirty five miles north of Seattle. The boy was considered popular and happy. Before his fatal meltdown, he greeted other students normally and waited until lunch time to wreak his wrath on his fellow students, plus society as a whole. Making such a huge and aggressively violent  statement about his growing inner apathy with life, its inhabitants, and the seemingly futility of bothering to go through it all expressed in his social media posts, are also a grave and vehement statement about our current American lifestyles, opinions, judgments, and perceptions of others.  The psychological repercussions of our modern lives may be infringing on our youths mental health. Young Americans views on life’s true meanings, and a life’s Non-monetary worth, may be being compromised by our dependence on materialistic technological advances, and large social eccentric personality and inferiority complexes that span across the world-wide-web. We slowly maybe redefining our social public worth to conform to cyber-space social standards - Technology seems to be overpassing some of our citizen’s mental capacities of coping with life’s simple and inevitable ups and downs. 

Keep Guns out of our kid’s hands: Jaylan was recently given a Deer rifle for a present from his parents at the age of 14, and was able to get ahold-of a small hand gun even at his young age. Gun reforms and universal background checks will stem the private sectors Un-regulated gun stockpiles, which are patiently waiting to ironically and legally slip into the wrong psychotic, criminal, or disgruntled hands. But gun control will do nothing to help hold back the illnesses, resentments, and apathetic hopelessness of a troubled human mind.
With increasingly violent games being tolerated by society, and promoted by big money retailers, and over a decade of constant brutal and bloody war being constantly broadcasted virtually in its entirety to grown-ups and juveniles alike, sometimes it seems futile, not to mention hypocritical to think that we are going to simply solve the epidemic of senseless youth violence through a rigorous school Anti-bullying  program. They certainly had bullies when I went to High School in the late 1970s, but I cannot remember one school shooting from that period, let alone a decade’s long series of endless school campus shootings. What we as a society may not realize is that by condoning, fully participating in, and passively promoting these progressively negative daily social norms of war, violence, intolerance, and public apathy mixed in with a strong dose of governmental distrust, that we might also be negatively infecting the future of our nation, with our nations somewhat hidden and under-discussed, or just plain Un-acknowledged social toxins. Unfortunately this makes society culpable and in-directly responsible for our present predicament of murderous and suicidal teenagers and grown-ups alike that seem to decide to intentionally and methodically snap one day, making sure that they take out all the petty cruelties, irritants, and inconveniences of their lives with them, vengefully and seemingly to those around them, without warning.  
Reading some of Jaylen Fryburg’s social media posts below, in hindsight, just like these shootings, they are a warning to the American People as to the need for deep social changes in our attitudes, perceptions, and sense of community. Jaylen’s messages are also a sad young boy’s desperate cry for help that once again fell unheeded with drastic and terribly tragic consequences for all those concerned.

Jaylen Fryburg’s Last Tweets:
Oct 23 - It won't last.... It'll never last.... Oct 21 - If I just laid down Oct 21 - I should have listened.... You were right... The whole time you were right. Oct 21 - It breaks me... It actually does... I know it seems like I'm sweating it off... But I'm not... And I never will be able to...Oct 20 - Alright. You fuckin got me.... That broke me Oct 13 - Fuuuucccckkkkkk you
And several very chilling and ominous posts he made a few months before, that may have been foretelling’s of a dark future - Sept 20th - I'm tired of this shit I'm sooo fucking done!!! I HATE THIS SHIT I Hate Hearin Shit Like That.. It Just Continues To Fuck Me Up I Just Feel Stupid Now.. Exactly What I Thought Was Gonna Happen Happened.. Aug 20 - Your gonna piss me off... And then some shits gonna go down and I don't think you'll like it... I hate that I can't live without you - Your not gonna like what happens next

Friday, October 17, 2014

Where Bozos’ Lurk: The Wasco Clown Hysteria

Where Bozos’ Lurk: The Wasco Clown Hysteria

In the beginning of October 2014, the Halloween spirit was in full fall bloom, and it was evident that the flamboyant holiday was right around the corner. What was not expected in a small town located outside of Bakersfield, California, was that “Threatening Dark Clowns” with Machetes and Baseball Bats could be lurking behind every corner of the sleepy streets of Wasco.

According to ABC Channel 7 News Los Angeles, the local panic craze started when a Bakersfield area couple made a Social Media post of them dressed in somewhat menacing clown costumes in the small outskirt community of Wasco, quickly turned into Social Media Hysteria when copy-cat’s posts appeared on Instagram with pictures of their own horrifying looking clowns, at numerous local Bakersfield California and surrounding area landmarks, Wasco being one of them.

Once Social Hysteria set in full force the Bakersfield Police Department began to receive numerous calls of evil looking clowns lurking in their neighborhoods, some with machetes, others holding baseball bats, and other assorted dangerous weapons of ill intent.

The local authorities have played down the hysteria noting that only one menacing clown was caught and arrested so far by police, and that “Rogue Clown” turned out to be a fourteen year old boy who was chasing younger kids in order to scare the crap out of them. The boy was charged with the very serious crime of – Annoying Fellow Juveniles; the kind of criminal record of which will undoubtedly haunt the poor boy for life when he has to find a job, or get an apartment.
So far this latest Social Media Social Hysteria has not materialized to be a demented invasion of the John Wayne Gacy Fan Club, or anything demonic or more sinister than a World-Wide-Web full of eager and willing copy-cats.
With Ebola, Al-Qaeda, ISIS, and random psychotic killers that seems to be perceived by the general public in the new millennium, maybe righteously,  as being ready-to-strike anywhere, or at any time around the nation. It is no wonder we tend to jump on the media bandwagon, and allow ourselves to become hysterical about some inconsequential controversy, or new national social concern that the American people suddenly demand to be addressed and fixed in a week or two; in order to make room for the next internet craze, panic, or outrage.  

With “Real” Pennywise and John Wayne Gacy wannabes’ roaming California’s  sleepy little communities once again, it’s all right to feel paranoid these days, and more importantly,  to hope that the new viral Social Media craze doesn’t infect your home town next!

Thursday, October 2, 2014

The World in the Eyes of a Child by (BTA)

The World through the eyes of a Child  
Is the World as we soon Know It! (BTA)

Friday, September 26, 2014

American Police Shootings: Racial Epidemic, or Media Epidemic?

American Police Shootings: Racial Epidemic, or Media Epidemic?

By Brian Thomas Armstrong

God did not make man in a racial image, but in his own; that is why we are all equal in the Lords eyes.

(Genesis 1 26-27)
26: Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
27: So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.

Anyone these days with a television set or a radio would have to be aware of a seemingly national epidemic of racially perceived unwarranted police shootings, sparking protests across the country and promoting political and social debate that has seemed to unfortunately promote a spreading social opinion that is split down racial lines, rather than down rational ones.

The national media has been accused of promoting racial shootings over random shootings, or sensationalizing racial toned shootings while virtually ignoring common race on race shootings and crime. Not exactly a far-fetched accusation of the currant medias tactics, especially when main stream media competes with social medias tendencies to fuel social hysteria along with every post , comment, or like,  over the High Speed Internets vast empire of On-line users.

 It seems that it is our human nature to be ever ripe for a good or new controversy to post about.  American media cannot be expected to carry the full weight of the blame, we tend to demand for what we get and expect from the media monster, and then self–righteously chastise it for doing so.
In giant urban cities like New York, New York, the racial statistical reports on police shootings in the city look pretty damning to the NYPD at first glance, with a staggeringly disproportionate 70% of the people who were shot by police in New York City being African Americans according to The New York Daily News.
The trouble with these sorts of statistics is they do not truthfully gauge so many other factors that make these types of statistics seem absolutely drawn down racial lines like, sprawling crime ridden areas that are poverty stricken with large singular racial make-ups, that have both roots in race and community, but are made up more out social cultural norms rather than created by racism. Poverty, crime, social and cultural tension are not new problems to American society, and simply blaming race for the societal and economic problems and barriers that face a vast majority of  us all eventually regardless of our race.

The best way of sifting through the latest controversies, scandals, conspiracies and world calamities that seem to barrage us everywhere we look these days, is pure and simple rationality, self-honesty of your own political or cultural motivations in maybe secretly wanting to believe the worst first,  Take time to contemplate the real social reasons for this seemingly plague of on-going racial tension in America, and most importantly in this fast age of instant internet  information traveling faster than the valid facts and points of the real story. Reason, patience, conscious, faith and openness are the true tools in fighting racism and flare ups of national racial tensions. These tools have always been and always will be aspects and virtues of god’s own image in ourselves.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Let it Go!

If You Truly Love Something
Hold on to it as Tight as you Can
Until you Smother it to Death
And then Never Let Go!

The Serpent Strikes by Brian Thomas Armstrong

The Serpent Strikes
by Brian Thomas Armstrong

A snake uncoils within my mind
It strikes my reason as it unwinds
It slithers deep inside my pain
And nests itself deeper inside my brain
When sunshine rises amidst my rain
It wiggles out from under my rocks of
stepping stones, further into my psyche
Waiting there silently in order to bite
all those who are near and dear to me
Leaving more piles of bleached dry bones
hidden somewhere in my skull

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Human Nature

Global Warming, Poisoned Rivers, Destroyed Lands, Animals Needlessly Killed Into Non-Existence, Oppressed Minorities, Apathy Towards Others in Need, Endless War - Technology has Advanced Incredibly - How Have We? (BTA)

Friday, September 12, 2014

Life's an Illusion

All this is an illusion? Boy, I must have a crappy
imagination then! 

Cosmic Trinity

Father – (YHVH) – Father Of Materialism
Son – (Christos) – Son of Man – Son of God
Holy Ghost – (The True Father of the All) – Father of Limitless Light

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Social Hysteria: American Political Weapon of Choice!

It is the Governmental Fear Mongering and Manipulation of facts, in order to Maximize Social Hysteria as a Political Weapon of Controlling the Masses for Corporate, Political, and Federal Gain, that is what's Directly RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS! In California, and also across the entire Nation.

Don't be a Political Party Robot!

 Don't be a Political Party Robot!  - Just because like me, you are a life-long Democrat - That is the job for all the Uptight Right - Wing Republicans of this country, not true Democrats. It is Time for Blindly loyal Obamaists to regain their sight back and realize - TWO WRONG PRESIDENTS IN A ROW - DO NOT MAKE THE RIGHT PRESIDENT FOR OUR GREAT NATION.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Broken Soldier

When they finally broke me - they screwed up and broke me beyond their usefulness, and to some extent beyond my own for decades - I could not justify killing for them any longer - and I would no longer allow them to further kill my original self anymore, no matter how hard they tried - and believe me they tried hard!

American Economy 101

Vibrant economy with 10,000,000 new jobs from the private sector my ass! - 10,000,000 new low paying jobs for 18 year old's from the Rich private sector - Makes politician's bullsh*t look good on paper though!

Saturday, September 6, 2014

The American Presidential Rule of Two:

The American Presidential Rule of Two:

"Always Two There Are…..A Master and an Apprentice"

Washington (AFP) - The US Justice Department has released two memos detailing the George W. Bush administration's legal justification for monitoring the phone calls and emails of Americans without a warrant.

Pow-Wow Trail

Tree Hugger

Joe Biden's Secret Thoughts

What a Dumb F*ck I Joined Up With!
Who else knows this feeling?

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Illegal Immigrants: Amnesty VS. Opportunity

Illegal Immigrants: Amnesty VS. Opportunity

Illegal Immigrants in America do not need amnesty – They need opportunity! Most are here in this country simply to earn money so they can send it back to their families in third world countries, in order to return home to a better life. Like most poverty stricken American citizens here at home, they resort to breaking the law out of desperation and self-survival. This capitalistic endless merry-go-round of a society based on the rich haves, feeding off the have-nots, threatens our cities streets, our population’s safety, divides our communities, and ensures a future generation of endless have-nots for the greedy to perpetually prey on. Immigration reform is a cheap political parlor trick for both Republicans and Democrats to divide and distract the population from reforming our political system, and bettering our nation’s legal citizen’s general population’s lives with real opportunity to succeed in true – Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness - Poverty is simply a lack of opportunity and governmental integrity!

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Never-ending Fools with Guns = Never-ending American Gun Tragedies

Never-ending Fools with Guns = Never-ending American Gun Tragedies 
by Brian Thomas Armstrong

“In a study of 23 high-income nations, 87 percent of children under age 15 killed by guns 
lived in the United States. 
       The same study found that the gun homicide rate for teens and young adults
in the U.S. ages 15-24 was 42.7%  higher than in the other high-income countries combined.” (

Last year in the beginning of 2013, a 3 year old boy in South Carolina got a hold of a small pink hand-gun that looked like a toy, and then accidentally and fatally shot himself in the head. The boy’s seven year old sister was also in the room with the child, luckily avoiding being shot herself while her and her brother played with the small hand gun in a bedroom unattended. The children’s grandparents where both in another room when the boy shot himself; his parents were not home. 

This year after several more well publicized mass-shootings and heated political debates on the subject of gun control, and mostly stalemate over the right to bare arms, there has not been much national progress in reducing or solving gun violence, let alone addressing public carelessness when it comes to active gun control and gun ownership.

The latest shooting range accident involving a nine year old girl at the Burgers and Bullets Range in White Hills, Arizona, highlights the reckless stupidity factor of gun nuts, when the young girl fatally shot her shooting range instructor in the head with an Uzi sub-machine-gun while being taught to fire the weapon on - FULL AUTO!

The tragedy at Burgers and Bullets was not a first national travesty of stupidity involving a young child at a firing range being given Uzi sub-machine-gun lessons. In 2008, an 8-year-old Christopher Bizilj also tragically and accidentally killed himself while shooting an Uzi at a Massachusetts gun show

A 2013 USA Today article stated that according to the New England Journal of Medicine – “Nationally, guns still kill twice as many children and young people than cancer, five times as many than heart disease, and 15 times more than infection.” That statistic is a national embarrassment to a modern American society that arrogantly prides itself at being worldly perceived as - the Greatest Nation on Earth. Our actions unfortunately tend to speak louder than our self-indulgent words when it comes to overseas perceptions of our true societal and governmental intellectual greatness.
Fools with guns cause just as much pain and tragedy as being mentally ill with a handgun. Universal background checks help, but certainly they are not a cure for a lack of common sense, sanity, or human decency in the firearm owner. What we need are good reasons for someone to have a hand gun permit in order to get a hand gun, funded safety courses that do not involve machine gun lessons, and of course thorough background checks - Then society as a whole can truly say that we are all using common sense, rationality, and human decency ourselves when it comes to real gun control and public safety in America - For All Americans.

Gun Violence & Children -
Ø  2694 children and teens died from guns in 2010. That’s a roughly equivalent to a Newtown
massacre every three days.
Ø  Between 1979 and 2010, more children and teens died from guns
(119,079) than U.S. soldiers in the wars in Vietnam, Korea, Iraq and Afghanistan combined.
Ø  In a study of 23 high-income nations, 87 percent of children under age 15 killed by guns lived in
the United States. The same study found that the gun homicide rate for teens and young adults
in the U.S. ages 15-24 was 42.7 higher than in the other high-income countries combined.
Ø  More than half of youth who commit suicide with a gun do so with one obtained from their
home—and more often than not, the gun belonged to a parent.
Ø  In 2009, more 15-19 year-olds died from gun violence than any other cause except motor

Ø  In 2010, 82 U.S. children under the age of five died from guns.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Obama offers us hopelessness again instead of hope & we still take it!

You know things are bad in this country when a life long Social-Democrat like myself, starts sharing and agreeing with Republican Up-Tight-Whitey Right-Wing Propaganda.      THANKS ALLOT OBAMA!

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Vote for Stupid!

Start voting with your heart and conscious, rather than what material things you will gain if that person is elected - then greedy and stupid won't elect greedy and stupid. 

Public Servants or Public Tyrants?

This is how your "public servants" protect and serve themselves - Police and Politicians are only interested in what you can do for them! Otherwise you are just a cash cow to politicians, or cattle for the slaughter to an increasingly militant American police force.

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A St. Louis County police officer, who was seen pushing a CNN anchor during protests in Ferguson, Mo., this week, was suspended from duty after a controversial video surfaced, in which he fashions himself as a merciless killer.

“I personally believe in Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, but I’m also a killer,” said officer Dan Page, a 35-year veteran, in the video. “I’ve killed a lot. And if I need to, I’ll kill a whole bunch more. If you don’t want to get killed, don’t show up in front of me. I have no problems with it. God did not raise me to be a coward." Page added, “I’m into diversity — I kill everybody. I don’t care."

Friday, August 22, 2014

Obama’s Endless Boehner Moves

"Every time the president unilaterally re-writes the law and ignores the Constitution, he does damage to the institutions of our democratic government, and undermines further the bonds of trust between that government and the American people." (John Boehner) - Not to mention that Obama also makes Democrats look just as crooked as Republicans every time he targets rivals and critics by illegally using government agencies as his Hench men - Uses his extensive education in constitutional law to circumvent the constitution, rather than uphold it - Chastises Congress for not working with him, then intentionally breaks the law by bi-passing Congress in order to exchange a war deserter for five Taliban terrorists so they can plot more death and destruction on Americans and others World-Wide. Obama's worst crime could be perceived as making Republican Speaker of the House, John Boehner, and the rest of his Up-Tight-White-Right coalition - Actually look like they were right all along about the Obama Administration, and even more damaging; the "New" Democratic parties moral political ethics in general!

Monday, August 18, 2014

Obama Israel

Social Security Disability Insurance is predicted to run out in 2016 - Do you see politicians giving a damn - They are to busy still playing "The Cold World War" to give one rat's ass about their own people here at home. Obama is not your new hope - He is just another Corporate Puppet Dope!

"Part of the U.S. offensive in Iraq involves targeting millions of dollars of its own equipment given to the Iraqi Army during the U.S. occupation and later seized by Islamic State militants after they seized two Iraqi military bases this summer. According to Reuters, some of the hardware the U.S. is attempting to destroy includes M1 Abrams tanks (about $6 million per), Mine-Resistant Ambush Protected Vehicles (about $1 million per), and 53 M198 Howitzer cannons ($527,337 per).
Reuters estimates that the U.S. spends somewhere between $84,000 and $104,000 to destroy between $1 and $12 million of its own military hardware per airstrike." By David Ludwig

Monday, July 28, 2014

The Nut Factory

The Nut Factory
by Brian Thomas Armstrong

    When I first arrived here I would sleep in the back of a truck-bed in my living room. I would wake up in the morning with nothing much to do, wondering, searching in my mind as to what I should partake in during my stay here - and then I found the factory, the old man told his visitor, with an enthused gleam in his eye.
    I started out by pulling taffy, and then tediously but joyously stretching it back and forth along the long walls of the factory’s warehouse. I then started making furniture so that I would have something to sit in while chewing on the fruits of my laborious creations. Then I started making shoes for the long walks I endured, and then grew to love, along the trail that I take to the market located in the middle of our town square in order to sell all the goods that I make, the old man said, brimming with pride.
    My success grew remarkably fast, so I then hired some of the locals that no one else would seem to hire, although they were perfectly fine men and women in my view,  and together we built the small industrial empire that you see here today, all based on candy and shoes that took the local business community around here by great surprise, creating many friends, and also a few formidable enemies if you know what I mean , he winked at his visitor looking very satisfied with himself – I am very very busy now as you can see, and I can hardly remember that dark place the state of my mind seemed to be trapped in before, when I was actively drinking that is. “I know how you feel pop, I’ve also been in that same dark place many times before,” the old man’s son told him in a somewhat solemn response. I’m very busy now as you can see, and I really must go, his father repeated once more. His son told him he wanted to come visit him again soon, and also bring some books back for him to read next time. Oh yes please do - said his father - but never mind the books, there is much for you to learn and do here, and I am in desperate need of help with my factory, as you can see I am very busy here. “I would like that allot pop,” replied his son, a sad smile was on his face as a tear started to well up in his eye. There was also a frazzled looking, somewhat confused and distracted smile on his father’s face as well, as father and son faced each other from across the long wooden table. Very fine then, said the old man, it was assuredly nice to see you again, and as I said before, I am very very busy here, and the factory needs me as you can see.  “OK pop, it was great to see you too,” he reached over and held/shook his dads hand for a brief minute, and then he stood up and left the room, forcing himself not to look back at his father as he walked away.
    The son looked back at the tall ominous brick building that housed/incarcerated his father as he often did, while walking slowly away from it towards his automobile in the always half empty dirt parking lot in front of the asylum. He was once again trying desperately to hold back the flood of welling tears that threatened to pour down the front of his youthful face. This was a sad routine he knew very well, and expected every time he left one of his few and fewer in-between visits with his disturbed father. He made another silent vow to himself that he would visit the institution more often – after all, his father certainly needed him now, more than he ever had before.